Friday, December 31, 2010
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
As I know I've mentioned before, I've discovered something new about myself through this process. I am NOT a patient person. Waiting is difficult, but waiting without news is excrutiatingly painful. I want my little boy home! I want to know that he's healthy and happy, and not just have faith in these things, but to see them with my own eyes (hmmm...do you think God might be trying to teach me something?). My little boy is halfway around the world and I'm not there to hold him when he cries or laugh when he does something funny. I'm not there to wake up in the night to feed him and cuddle him back to sleep or show him off to family and friends or even change his diapers- things that most parents take for granted and even complain about. I'm not there to do any of that. It hurts me to think of all that he has endured and will endure in his first few months. He's already had to endure the loss of his birth mother, then in a few short weeks, he'll move from the countryside to the city and leave behind the only caregivers that he's ever known (other than the brief time he spent with his birthmother)- two huge losses in his young life. As if that's not enough, then he'll have to leave those caregivers, his country, culture, language, everything that helps to define usas people to board a plane with strangers and head to a new home, with new family, culture, language, new everything.
While I'm waiting, I've been trying to keep busy. We are nearly finished with his nursery (not the Christmas Eve deadline we had hoped for) and are moving his furniture in today. I'll post pictures soon.
Our 10-year anniversary is tomorrow. Please God, some news of a court date is all that I want and hope for.
Our little boy is growing and I'm missing it all. How can I ever get this time back?
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Christmas presents are bought (but not wrapped- YIKES!) and I'm on Christmas break for the next two weeks. Yay! We've started (though barely) on the nursery and hope to have most of it accomplished before Christmas Eve.
This year will be a bit bittersweet. Aidan, of course, will not be with us (as of this moment, we are still waiting for a court date), but little Ava is here and well. This will be our last Christmas Eve spending the night at my sister's house so that we can be there first thing in the morning when Jake and Ella open their gifts, but next year we'll start new traditions with our little boy.
Here's wishing all of you a joyous Christmas. God bless!
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Monday, December 13, 2010
Friday, December 10, 2010
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Four (or more) families were notified yesterday that they have a court date. I'm so excited for them! It's a bit bittersweet, because 3 of those families received referrals after ours. I'm trying not to be impatient or frustrated with the process, but it's REALLY hard getting passed over. I keep praying that Aidan's okay and that our paperwork is in order. Unfortunately, this has just brought back some painful memories and feelings from our infertility. It's so hard to be on that roller coaster ride and hear of other's getting pregnant. As excited as I was for them, I couldn't help feel a bit envious and think "Why not me?!? They've only been trying for a month (or two, or three) when we've been trying for 4 years!" So, not my most attractive moments, and definitely not how I want to live my moments waiting for our son to come home. I have to remember that this isn't about me (or Liam), it's about Little A and when it's best for him to come home. Only God knows the timing. And I trust Him!
I'm really trying to keep faith that God is in control of this and that His plan is perfect. I just wish we had some news. Please keep Liam and me (more me...as Liam is proving to have the patience of Job) in your prayers, that we would have patience during this process. Here's praying for some great news today.
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
One of the people who was notified today is Cerise. We received our referrals on the same day and our little boys' birthdays are only 3 days apart. The others that were notified today got their referrals after ours, so I'm really praying we will hear something soon. I can't wait to hold and smooch my little boy!
Nothing new to report. We're still waiting for a court date. The last time that I contacted Holt, they said that the process could take between a month to two months (of course, this was before the delays with the license renewal). Tomorrow will be 8 weeks since our referral. Our little guy continues to grow (as he's supposed to), but I'm wishing that we could somehow stop time and keep him as young as possible. Doesn't every parent wish for that? He was 18 weeks on Saturday. We miss you so much our sweet baby boy. Your daddy and I pray every night (really the only prayer we pray now) for you to come home to us soon. Our family won't be complete until you're with us. Love you more with every day that passes.
Sunday, December 5, 2010
My brother-in-law suggested that I listen to this song. So, completely off topic from the adoption, I'm sharing it with you.
It's amazing the perfection when you actually consider God's plan for our salvation. Makes me feel so humble and grateful beyond words. Remembering the true reason for Christmas and rejoicing in His birth.
Friday, December 3, 2010
Thursday, December 2, 2010
We're disappointed, yes. Frustrated, definitely, but we're also trying to see God's will in all of this. We have faith in our adoption agency, faith in Our Heavenly Father, and faith that when Aidan is supposed to be home, then God will bring him home.
We love you little guy. Nothing has changed, except we may not get to see and hold you as soon as we had hoped.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
However, I'm trying to stay positive and keep myself busy. Over our Christmas break we intend to get the nursery set up. The bedding came in yesterday, and I also received a call from the furniture store that all the furniture that Mom and Dad bought us for Christmas is in, as well. It's fun to imagine what it will look like when we have all the pieces put together. So, onward and upward we go, trusting that God's timing is perfect and Little A will come home soon.